Mental illness is still not talked about enough and as some one who has mental health disorders, I feel it is only right I speak openly about it, so people have a better understanding of what it is like. I also think it is very important that mental health awareness is taught in school, spoke about at home to young people, so they can spot the signs and reach out if they need to for help.
I never felt like I really fitted in at school.. I wasn’t a popular teenager but neither was I alone, but I always felt different. Inside I would feel on edge all the time. My stomach would be in knots worrying about what other people thought of me at school and I never felt good enough. The depression weighed heavy on my heart and I would have sleepless nights, with endless thoughts of negative scenarios running through my mind. I had crippling anxiety that I tried to hide and the majority of the time I just wanted to blend into the background.
While low and anxious I wouldn’t relax, I took my lessons far too serious and was often told to lighten up..I just didn’t know how to, that was until I became hyper from my bipolar (without even realizing that’s what was happening) I became overly confident, my introverted days were a thing of the past and I felt wonderful. I was disruptive in lessons, spoke back to the teachers and picked arguments with other people at school. My family seen me as a ‘rebel’ and I wasn’t a very nice person at the time to be around…
But, it wasn’t me. It was the mental illness, the chemical imbalance in my brain, the mood swings I wasn’t aware of and certainly had no control over.
I believe if young people in comprehensive schools were taught of such mental health disorders it would have such a positive impact on their future life’s. With 1 in 4 people being diagnosed with depression, it is crucial that they are provided with valuable information on mental health awareness, so they don’t feel alone if they feel they are suffering. So they can feel empathy for the person sitting next to them in class who doesn’t seem OK. So they can spot symptoms and not feel ashamed or different. So they can seek help from a family member, teacher, friend or gp and nip it in the bud before it gets any worse.
I feel I am one of the lucky one’s getting a diagnosis so early on in life, that I can manage my bipolar and generalized anxiety disorder the best way I know how.. but thinking of the future generations I want them also to be able to recognise when something is wrong. To take the necessary steps so they can go on to lead their life how they want to and not let a mental disorder have a big hold over them. Instead they can take control of the mental illness because they would have been told how to. They would have relapse signatures written down and coping strategies put in place so they too can manage a mental disorder the best way they know how.
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